I was born in 1960, and as this is 2009, in November I will be 49. (Do you see where this is heading?) So, in 2010 I will turn 50. There, I said it.
I've always thought I'd do something to mark the event. At 30, I had a lobster dinner at a friend's house with black napkins, etc. 40 I barely noticed (but my staff brought me a German Chocolate Cake and trashed my office). 50 feels like something I need to orchestrate myself.
So, I need to decide what I want to do, and make it happen, but I'm confused about when it should happen. I'm pretty sure that I will choose swimming with the Great White Shark. I can do the less expensive package off the Farallons, it's one day thing, and my birthday is in the middle of "shark season". But, I'm also thinking of doing the weeklong packaged from San Diego to Guadalupe-that's a summertime thing, but the water is warmer and clearer. So, would I do it summer 2010 or summer 2011? I'm totally not sure about that one.
Or, do I say screw it, book a day trip to the Farrallon's this fall, with the plan to go to Guadalupe the following year if I come up empty handed? I've been working on upper body strength, because other than appearing in a wet suit in public, not being able to haul out of the cage quickly is my biggest fear. Face to face with the shark, no problem, turning my back on it and dangling my legs in the water while I crawl out-nightmare city.
There are other shark tours to be sure, but if I do one, I want to go straight to the one of my heart-my beautiful Great Whites.
I thought maybe Casper would soothe that savage beast, but loving one thing doesn't mean you can't love another too. I've never been happy when I felt like I had to choose one or the other. (Strangely enough, I've never been promiscuous either.)
Hmmm, maybe I should take up promiscuity for my 50th year....Ha ha. Not.
I thought about making a list, ala Soulbrush, but 50 things before 50 seems like a huge task. But, I could break it down into different categories-like emotionally hard but inexpensive, fun but expensive (GW shark), good for the soul, but inexpensive....I will give that some more thought as well. Might be fun to "countdown" to the big day. It's starting to be a "looming thing" so tacking it head on and publicly might be just the ticket. Soul is a pretty smart cookie, but we knew that.
I've mentioned it in passing, but this is the first time I've ever really sat and thought about the big 5-0. Part of me thinks it's silly to even think about it at all, but I don't want to find out later I spent far too long leading up to it dreading it when a little forethought and action could have made it all right.