dearest Debra, for me, too, apathy is the worst thing.... when you are sad, obviously you know what happiness is ... and this is great... but apathy changes us to robots... you are a true human being ...
and perhaps life is all about this seeking ... or as Bobbb has written, "wandering" think you will like his last post:
But don't we all look for comfort when we feel sad or distressed. It is human to desire comfort. There is a buddhist meditation in which one breathes in distress and breathes out comfort either to oneself or another person or a situation or whatever. Sort of an anti-California meditation where you would breathe in light and love and breath out the grungyness. I think it an interesting and helpful to me anyway meditation. Actually thanks to you for reminding me of it.
I don’t know what to say… Sometime this thing You must find in yourself Sometimes you may find it in others
And sometimes there is none
Often I fall back to things I know or have heard These lines from a song by They Might Be Giants come to mind
No one in the world Ever gets what they want
And that is beautiful
Somewhere on my journey Through space Time And discovery I began to connect To just about everything
Including Grief Loss And despair
This was a dangerous connection For me to make And it almost swallowed me For the connection runs deep Back to my early childhood
When JFK was assassinated I was five or six Years old
I didn’t understand The trauma The horror Or the significance Of the event
But I felt it
I felt it Deep Within myself And the collective conscience Of the universe
I still do
When Martin Luther King Was assassinated It was like Déjà vu Of grief To me
I did not understand Most of what was said At the time Years later I began to slowly comprehend
Bobby Kennedy spoke that day Disregarding his prepared speech He spoke instead From the deep despair In his own heart
Such politicians do not exist today
There was no comfort That he could give And he knew it And he said so
Instead – he gave of himself Something I tend to do In such moments
And he quoted poetry:
My favorite poet was Aeschylus. He once wrote: "Even in our sleep, pain which cannot forget Falls drop by drop upon the heart Until, in our own despair Against our will Comes wisdom Through the awful grace of God."
Bobby Kennedy Was then assassinated also He was buried on my 11th birthday…
Comfort or no You will stand Or fall On the strength You hold within Your self
Should you fall There are those Who will help you Stand up And begin again
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i suppose that any feeling Is better than no feeling at all...sigh...but we don't half hurt ourselves along the way. hugs.
oh dear..I know THAT tune!
shall I sing along?
I think we all know that tune at some time...
debra kay, i wish i could cheer you up. is it such a good idea to live so close to your parents? maybe i just wish i could send you ear muffs....
:)
dearest Debra,
for me, too, apathy is the worst thing....
when you are sad, obviously you know what happiness is ... and this is great...
but apathy changes us to robots...
you are a true human being ...
and perhaps life is all about this seeking ... or as Bobbb has written, "wandering"
think you will like his last post:
http://bandingozen.blogspot.com/2008/05/wandering.html
But don't we all look for comfort when we feel sad or distressed. It is human to desire comfort. There is a buddhist meditation in which one breathes in distress and breathes out comfort either to oneself or another person or a situation or whatever. Sort of an anti-California meditation where you would breathe in light and love and breath out the grungyness. I think it an interesting and helpful to me anyway meditation. Actually thanks to you for reminding me of it.
Comfort?
I don’t know what to say…
Sometime this thing
You must find in yourself
Sometimes you may find it in others
And sometimes there is none
Often I fall back to things I know or have heard
These lines from a song by They Might Be Giants come to mind
No one in the world
Ever gets what they want
And that is beautiful
Somewhere on my journey
Through space
Time
And discovery
I began to connect
To just about everything
Including Grief
Loss
And despair
This was a dangerous connection
For me to make
And it almost swallowed me
For the connection runs deep
Back to my early childhood
When JFK was assassinated
I was five or six
Years old
I didn’t understand
The trauma
The horror
Or the significance
Of the event
But I felt it
I felt it
Deep
Within myself
And the collective conscience
Of the universe
I still do
When Martin Luther King
Was assassinated
It was like Déjà vu
Of grief
To me
I did not understand
Most of what was said
At the time
Years later
I began to slowly comprehend
Bobby Kennedy spoke that day
Disregarding his prepared speech
He spoke instead
From the deep despair
In his own heart
Such politicians do not exist today
There was no comfort
That he could give
And he knew it
And he said so
Instead – he gave of himself
Something I tend to do
In such moments
And he quoted poetry:
My favorite poet was Aeschylus.
He once wrote:
"Even in our sleep, pain which cannot forget
Falls drop by drop upon the heart
Until, in our own despair
Against our will
Comes wisdom
Through the awful grace of God."
Bobby Kennedy
Was then assassinated also
He was buried on my 11th birthday…
Comfort or no
You will stand
Or fall
On the strength
You hold within
Your self
Should you fall
There are those
Who will help you
Stand up
And begin again
I am one
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