For some fun, rainy day dog fun http://poidogz.blogspot.com/2008/05/perspective-into-each-life-rain-must.html ....
I've really worked hard to stay in the moment and address things as they arise. One of the things I've addressed is sometimes I just need some time for me-non productive, drinking tea on the porch time with my dogs. And there is no need to create drama or trauma in order to justify that-just sitting down and taking the moment works as well, if not better.
My therapist asked me the other day what I thought dropping out of corporate america, moving to Oklahoma City and becoming introspective was going to BE like. I laughed and said, "Honestly, like a spa visit or something...." Nothing is ever quite that simple, is it?
Something Ekhardt Tolle said during an Oprah session resonated with me, and I remembered it today. He said something to the effect that sometimes the best way to begin to figure out who you are is to understand who you are not.
I think that is true. There are pieces of me all over the place, but none of those pieces defines the total of who I am or who I want to be. And, maybe the thing I want most is not to be defined in the first place.
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I like the idea of figuring out who I am NOT! Great way to start
The doggies look like they are having a great time : ) I'm totally good at figuring out who I don't want to be. I'm not so great at all the rest of it.
You go to a therapist? They are are all crazy and have screwed up lives to you know.
I went to one for a while many years ago, after a few months she wanted to go to bed with me, that silly little monkey. Cute and had a nice chest, maybe I should have.
Now I just go to the beach.
everybody was holding a piece of the mirror... looking into it... seeing something different from others... never thinking that the pieces of the mirror were all the same...
Debra, you've got a big heart and a beautiful soul...
Today was one of those days that started with a lot of promise and just fizzled out. Sometimes you can't hang on to the joy no matter how hard you try. Still, I suppose it was no worse than a day that starts with dread and turns out to be not so bad. The icky parts are in different places.
My errands were to an ethnic fabric store where I was the only white person, an upscale fabric store where I was the only person with tattoos, the reptile friendly pet store to pick up a container of mice for the snakeys and a ice cream store where I got an identical container of coconut ice cream for Mom. I really enjoyed comparing and contrasting each destination and the people there in. Everyone was pleasant as people generally are on sunny Friday.
Wouldn't it be a hoot to have a sit down dinner with each person you met in a day? What stories they would tell!
I like the expression "I am enough." If only we all believed that.
I just bought A New Earth unabridged audio version and try to listen to it when I go to bed. I usually fall asleep too soon, but last night I was totally into it and it just stopped. Damn.
Today I'll bring the book to the studio and hopefully get through a chapter.
I love the idea of sitting down with the strangers we meet!
just 'being' is something we forget about in our attempts to please others, i think i'm also going to take some 'me' time soon!
I often feel all over the place -- that's why I like the blog ... it kinda makes me be all the mixes of things I am and integrate them all --- instead of adapting like a chameleon to make others feel comfortable. Your different shop stops makes a lovely story :) I also liked the final words in your piece above ... "when I have a mother who will do that for free" - LOL.
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