...that I'm going round in circles. And I am. But each revolution brings new perspective and new ideas. It's a little like reincarnation, only perhaps a little faster.
And my big ahaaaa of late is that I really do have to give myself a break. Whether I learned it from upbringing, or from society or the media-I'm just too friggin hard on myself. No one could carry the load that I see for myself in my mind. If someone talked to my mother the way I talked to me, I'd kick their ass up around their shoulders.
I'm not quite ready for a warm, cuddly kumbaya moment with myself, but I do need to be a fair and just leader to myself-not just to others. My self talk has managed to paralyze me, locked in to the no win "you aren't any further along than this????" conversation.
I can either have that endless conversation, or I can move foreward. I choose to move.