Thursday, March 12, 2009

Earthquake on Sunday, Snow on Thursday

Yes, I finally felt my first earthquake. It was just a small shock, but I was awake, I knew what it was, there was no maybe about it. Another thing off the bucket list.

The snow is just a dusting-it's not really warm enough to stick, and I am glad. We need the moisture, and I am always glad for a curl up and cuddle day.

Earthquake on Sunday, two dog tragedy on Monday, snow on Thursday. Lily is dead. Prissy is recovering and I really don't want to talk about it. Sometimes things just get bad so quickly and so fast that sharing it when it's over doesn't seem right. Yet, this space has come to be a "sharing" space. Maybe this is just one of those things that takes awhile to unfold-the silver lining doesn't always leap out at first glance.

Yet, me, being me, I always believe it's there.

13 comments:

Lisa at Greenbow said...

It sounds like the earthquake was a premonition of things to come. Animals react to earthquakes.

I hope things become calm and bearable soon.

soulbrush said...

ohmigod, can feel the pain..no words can help....

Mim said...

OH DEB....oh Deb...oh dear....I don't know what/how to say it.

Debra Kay said...

You guys are the best. I didn't want to say anything because I get tired of posting sad things. But, sometimes life is just sad. Fortunately, lots of times it isn't.

JJ said...

I'm so sorry....what happened?

kj said...

deb, i've just read and reread your words. lily? what happended? i am so sorry. please write all you want if you want. that's what this is all .

xo

Debra Kay said...

I've had rumblings of things being amiss for several months now. Cody began acting strange, but checked out with every medical test the vet could think of. I chalked it up to Moon's testosterone.

Lily became pretty agressive, but would cry if left alone. Part of it was because Prissy would growl, Lily couldn't hear, and Priss would pitch into her (from Lily's viewpoint) out of the blue.

Long story short, Lily tried to kill Prissy. This was not a little dog squabble, this was a full on attack where she wouldn't pull off of her. She tried to rip her leg off and shook her like a terrier shakes a rat-I first thought she'd broken Prissy's back.

I took Prissy to the vet for X-rays, then went back and got Lily and had her put down. Not out of anger. I held Lily while she went, as I do all my dogs.

Lily, either because she was deaf, or maybe had some mental issue due to lack of oxygen at birth, did not respond to positive reinforcement, and would completely break down if crated alone or in a side yard. I didn't feel like I could isolate her, and I couldn't trust her with my other dogs, and I won't rehome a dog who has been aggressive.

So, I did what I felt was best for the pack.

Prissy is recovering-there were no broken bones, just a lot of soft tissue injuries, and some puncture wounds. Emotionally she was shocky for a couple of days, but as she's healed, she's bouncing back.

Cody IS doing better as well, although I can't quite figure that one out-Cody is a bigger, older dog than Lily was. He must have been upset about something though.

In fact, rather than being upset, the entire pack seems calmer, and while I'm happy for them, I'm upset because I didn't realize what was going on and was unable to help Lily.

Ironically, on Wednesday, the neighbor's puppy king dug up their former dog who died in October. I'm sick of death this week.

MuseSwings said...

Debby - I'm so sorry about Lily and about Priss's injuries. I know you have as much recovering to do now as Prissy does. Hugs to you!

human being said...

most of the time our choices seem a battle between our heart and our mind...
and which one wins? ironically our heart is always the winner...

Lily for the rest...

love to you...

Michele said...

Wow, you have a lot going on. I didn't even know there could be Earthquakes in OK. And I'm so sorry about the dogs. I had to have Bonnie put to sleep last year, a few days after I had a miscarriage. It all seems to come at once doesn't it. Hang in there. Brighter days are on the way.

Mim said...

Deb - you are strong and did the right thing, however difficult. That said...my heart still breaks for you. love to prissy

kj said...

my heart breaks for you too. i'm glad prissy is ok and i know you did the best and right thing...

xo

studio lolo said...

Holy crap Debra Kay. I feel like I've missed so much. How awful for you and the kids to have gone through that. Thank goodness you were there so the whole gang didn't kick into pack mentality.

Poor Lily and Prissy. And poor you for Pete's sake. Jeez Louise I don't think I can say anything that would help. I know I certainly can't change things.

Just consider yourself hugged. Let the tears and the anger flow if it will help.
You have a big support group out here for what it's worth.
Damn it all.

XX