Tuesday, November 4, 2008


I feel kind of bad (but not too bad, it's just a blog) about how inconsistent I have been lately in posting. So I am going to write this on Sunday night to go out Tuesday morning since I'm spending tomorrow (Monday) on the road with both my parents looking at the leaves. Tuesday I've got to find my voter registration card, go vote, pick up the cat who has been at the vet and recover from an 8 hour or more drive with my parents, sort out grumpy animals who are not used to being left alone all day, etc. etc.

Our human ability to see the future is both a blessing and a curse, isn't it? I've just given you a synopsis of my next two days for you to read as a recap two days from now. No wonder I never know what fucking day it is.

I haven't posted much because I just haven't felt, well, "chatty" and I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing. I did spontaneously conceive and create Senita's Opera......and I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing, but it was fun. When scene one, the Spanish tableau with rose rocks, Fiesta Ware and the parrot resulted in a near seizure on behalf of the bird, I said "screw it" and just went with what worked for all of us. Then I discovered the caption function on Youtube.

I'm just running on blind stupid faith right now. I don't know why I am here or what I'm supposed to be doing (and just in case anyone is so inclined, I don't want to be TOLD the answer, so if you think you know, shut the fuck up). I have a few ideas kicking around in my head, but nothing just seizes me with desire to go out and do it. Once upon a time I would just pick one and run, because life is short, yadda yadda. Now I think, life is short, why bother rushing? If it ends before you are done, so what? Watching Uncle John has taught me that it is far worst NOT to end before you are done.

Geeze, this so out of synch with the world, because when YOU read this it will be in the midst of one of the most exciting political events in our nation's history and my Sunday night musings will seem trivial, as they are. So here, on Sunday night, I'm putting this out into the Universe-PLEASE let it be Obama.......

I know it's not rational, because I don't actually know that other person/persons-but they have become the embodiment of everything that has ever oppressed me. That might not be all that irrational come to think about it-they ARE the embodiment of most things that have oppressed me. And I really need to see someone NOT like THEM to win the top spot. Cause, then I'll know, that there are more like me than not....and I think that might make me feel better.


kj said...

please from me too, debra kay. it could be the start of healing and hope, and that will filter down to you and me too.

i hope your monday went well. i don't like days scheduled like that, though i have plenty of them.


Debra Kay said...

Yesterday was very nice-everyone on their best, no fault finding/complaining behavior. It's what I wish my childhood could have been. But pretty much solid driving from 6:30 till around 4:30 took a big toll, my eyes are fried today and I'm exhausted, so I'm glad I posted something to show up today.

Mim said...

I'm shutting up an just saying hello (and I loved the opera)

studio lolo said...

I read every word, took it all in and now I'm shutting up. The comment I was going to leave had a little bit of an "advice" tone to it so I didn't post it. Well, maybe more encouraging than advisory. Still, not a peep from me!
:P Glad you had a good day though.

soulbrush said...

the opera, i have played it now 5 times, and i kill myself laughing every time again...man it was so random and off the cuff, hell i like that shit...so glad i don't know what the fuck i'm doing -it's GOOD!! (oops that was typed as GODD, and it ain't him at all!)go obama go!!!

Debra Kay said...

I voted, even though my state is heavily McPainintheass loaded and theoretically, my individual vote doesn't make a difference. But, I've always lived in states where my vote "doesn't make a difference" and I still vote. I vote because I can and others can't...and I vote for bitchin rights. If you don't like the next 4 years, but didn't bother to vote-you have no bitchin rights.

I also believe there is a statistical difference, and a mystical difference. I know I got a personal boost from casting my vote, and I hope other people do the same and feel the same-no matter how they vote. The important thing is to participate in the process and the conversation.