Friday, August 27, 2010

On the Brink

My friend Misty is coming today to help me with my clutter.  I'm scared and that's all I can say today-I'd like to be able to write a long and eloquent list of thoughts with a happy outcome-but the truth is closer to this: I'm not at all sure about this.

I AM sure about my friend-no doubts there-but this whole sharing of problems thing-it's a little new to me.  This is my test case of vulnerability-sharing something without knowing if I can cope with the outcome.

In fact, I wanted to share this is happening right now and ask you all to send clean and orderly thoughts my way.  I am making the sidebar on this blog happen-but damn it's not easy for me.  I always seem to go right straight for the hard stuff.


soulbrush said...

read your last few posts and here's what I am sending you:
1) glad thoughts that you have a good friend like Misty, I don't have anyone I could do this with - probably my choice- I don't do 'friends'too well
2) you will feel so much better after the declutter and sharing will take some stuff off your decluttered brain too
3) meditation is my new game, and it is helping me so much, why don't you try it?
shit, why didn't I rather write an e mail???

Debra Kay said...

So far what I'm feeling is a complete lack of control. I know it's in my head, the illusion of control and the illusion of the lack of control-but there it is, it's what I feel.

Robin said...

Debra Kay, oh how I can relate to difficulties in "asking for help" and "Sharing Problems" is hard.....but having already "met" a few of your Friends, I KNOW they love and adore you and are there for you. So....take a deep breath - and let them.

And, an friend who just went "swimming with Sharks" - DID enjoy it....but, it wasn't the "extraordinary" event he was hoping for....still, he wasn't that's a plus, right?

Sending you hugs and strength to let friends help you!

♥ Robin ♥

Lisa at Greenbow said...

You can do it Deb. I know you can. I am sending clean orderly thoughts your way.

studio lolo said...

I'm proud of you Deb. I so wish my brother in law in SF would ask for help. He'll be buried alive soon in his underground hovel.
I'll send you an article his sister just sent us. There is help all around if you let it come in.

Bless you Misty!

love you Deb♥

kj said...

you know where to find me if ever needed. it will be my pleasure.

Mim said...

Deb - you're a brave, honest, thoughtful woman. I think you can just do it. and letting others help is (1) good for you and (2) a good deed to let someone else do a good deed.

make sense?