tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-166466078612863791.post3447510624064536860..comments2023-10-20T10:25:41.260-05:00Comments on Beam Me Up Scotty: New Riddle-When do you let go?Debra Kayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13455047894767524091noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-166466078612863791.post-7438736655546854712008-03-28T20:28:00.000-05:002008-03-28T20:28:00.000-05:00Oliver is full speed ahead as always.Michele, I ha...Oliver is full speed ahead as always.<BR/><BR/>Michele, I have a lot more trouble with people than animals-not that I love people more, but animals seem more unafraid and accepting of death, so I feel like I should be too. Maybe this little girl's soul decided-OOOH, not yet. My own mother had two miscarriages, and as children do, my brother pointed out if either of them had made it I wouldn't be here, but as the first live birth and second, he was always assured of a "life". I used to ponder this, but having learned a great deal more about life, each one is so fraught with what ifs that you can'r really isolate a certain set of circumstances governing whether or not you are here. I really think all life is interwoven, so that you, me, all our daughters passed and present, are somehow a part of one big life force. Nothing is ever really lost.Debra Kayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13455047894767524091noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-166466078612863791.post-55003252944241585632008-03-28T19:17:00.000-05:002008-03-28T19:17:00.000-05:00Oh Deb, that's brilliant!! Love it, thank you!How'...Oh Deb, that's brilliant!! Love it, thank you!<BR/>How's Oliver??studio lolohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15363808478293833466noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-166466078612863791.post-10651318155467086952008-03-28T15:12:00.000-05:002008-03-28T15:12:00.000-05:00I haven't been hanging onto the first baby I lost ...I haven't been hanging onto the first baby I lost because I grieved hard and moved on. The second one though has been more tough. I found out this week that the baby was a girl, which really crushed me because I want another girl. I had a rough few days as I thought about it. But I did something that seemed to ease the pain. I named her. I had a name I loved from when I was a little girl and wanted to have five children ... a name Neil would never agree to in real life ... so I named my baby girl and somehow I feel better. Not ready to let go or move on but better.Michelehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10058386764811033042noreply@blogger.com